I feel empty. I hate having to say goodbyes. Leaving highschool was already bad enough. And now college? :( I know I’ll see some people next year, but that’s the thing, SOME. A lot of people I know and have met are leaving. Some I might see again, others not. It’s biting me inside. I just said bye to my roomate, Ricardo. It was weird saying bye to him..sigh. I hope I’ll see him next year. I also said bye to a cool new friend I’ve met, her name is Sarah Shelly. She was so much fun, and she always made me laugh. Also, Larissa (idk her last name), she was pretty fun and cool too. I also said my goodbyes to Lauren and Lei—they will be transferring to another University next year. And Jacob Beck will also as well. So will Jeremy Manning. I’m going to miss all those transferring fools. =( Lauren was always so fun to talk to and poke fun. Lei was always there for me and I still remember that time we went and ate at that buffet. =) LOL, let’s go eat at CiCi. Ok, nvm, let’s go eat at a chinese buffet! YESSS. Oh, gosh. I gained so much weight in the first semester of freshman year. And Jacob, aka tipmaster. I’ll miss him a lot, too. He was one of the first guys I’ve met and started talking to here at SWAU. Him and Joseph. Yupyup. Jeremy, that guy was all sorts of funny. I won’t forget him for making that awesome movie project we had to do for Human Growth. It sucks that I JUST started talking to him. And, oh, HEATHER. How could I forget about her. Ahh I’ll miss her as well. She was always fun to talk to, about anything. She always was a good listener. I’ll also be missing Christine. Blehaksdjlasdklsad

I can’t keep listing all these people. It’s going to make me internally cry. Sigh. BIG sigh. I just wished everyone would stay at SWAU like I am, but I guess that’s just being selfish and that what everyone wants is different from mine.

That’s just thing, though. I NEED to realize that it’s not always about me, and that my imaginary audience and imaginary thoughts of others need to STOP. I can’t change them. As much as I want for certain things to happen, it’s not.

I hate this feeling.

…. =(

Well, on the brighter note, school is OFFICIALLY over. Now, to get through summer without killing myself. Just kidding. I’m so glad it’s summer, but at the same time, I don’t like being at home. It’s so…I guess, boring. Being stuck at home and having to be scolded at constantly, like a dog….

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fin.

I can’t believe