So how come I study day and night for an exam, attempting to remember and memorize as much information as I can for this test, I study, I read, I did the study guide, I looked at the CD, I tried using the last year’s study guide as a reference…and then BAM. When I sit and take this exam, it is NOTHING like ANYTHING I’ve recalled studying. It was not anything she covered in class, it was SO SPECIFIC…..It was pretty much just like taking the NCLEX Med Surge Section. Anyways, as I took this test, we only had an hour and thirty minutes for 75 questions. By the end of the exam, I had to rush to finish. After taking that test, I honestly felt like one of those idiotic students who didn’t bother studying, who tried cramming, and who just didn’t care and BSed their whole way through the exam—which is pretty much what I did. Now, I can understand that nursing is a vigorous and intense major, but let me make this clear, I AM NOT LAZY. YOU CANNOT MEMORIZE EVERY SINGLE DAMN WORD IN 70+ PAGES OF A TEXBOOK. HOW CAN YOU JUST TELL US THAT TO STUDY FOR YOUR EXAMS WE NEED TO “KNOW EVERYTHING?” WE DON’T GET A STUDY GUIDE. (And I am not asking for the answers, I just need to know what areas you consider important, but how can you when you have different “guest speakers” every week?) TOO CONFUSING. I don’t understand, and I’ve never felt so upset and stupid taking any exam before. I honestly tried my best, but I guess my best (for her at least) is an F. Can I add that on that same day we had a project to present, too, and that prior to that week we had 3 exams and a quiz in all of nursing classes? Just saying.

AND THEN the nerve my parents have when I try venting to them about how frustrated I felt about this exam and how I believe I failed it, literally, AND THEY JUST ACCUSE ME OF MY FAILING GRADES BECAUSE OF GAHDAMN HANGING OUT/”PARTYING”/HAVING TOO MUCH FUCKING FUN? ARE YOU SERIOUS? YOU CAN’T BE FUCKING SERIOUS? THE LAST THING I EVER HAD THESE PAST THREE STRESSFUL WEEKS WERE HANGING OUT AND HAVING FUN. They even kept threatning me about checking my gas mileage and see “where I’ve been?” I’m hurt. Are you fucking kidding me? Seriously what kind of bullshit is that. They start yelling at me for being lazy and always “being with friends.” One, I haven’t hung out with any kind of friend lately. ALL I’VE FUCKING BEEN DOING is studying at any kind of library. uiasudklasdkluetiwouweiofjkldsjfksdljfklsdjf

I still have clinical papers to do, and I have to get up at 4am tommorow morning.

I’m done. Bye.